December 6, 2006

Learning to Fly

Where is my place in modern society? I am a raging grumpy middle-aged man with blue-collars roots, a white-collar life, and radical ideas. NO, I won’t change, no I won’t live your way of life. I’m a homebody because the world has become uninteresting and I can’t understand why people live like they do. I’ve caused mental damage to myself, I’ve lost most of my battles, I struggle with my ideals and have been wounded and hung on a cross because I won’t conform.

All I ask is that you listen and consider my pointless point-of-views without blocking it out as soon as I say the first word. Why is my heart always breaking? I will put my foot in my mouth and my heart on my sleeve, as they stab me in the back, misunderstanding what I want to say. My intentions are good and positive for everybody.

Instead, everyone closes their minds, so I just sit at home with my door locked, review my beliefs and successes. And You know what, I want you to think of me as that raging psycho old man, it makes me feel good and entrenches my imaginary standard of excellence. I believe I’m old enough to know, I believe my rage is righteous and my causes are noble, even though some days its a struggle to survive.

But you know what matters the MOST! Life goes on no matter who is wrong or right!

While I'm up, can I get you another Beer.


How in the world you gonna see,
Laughin' at fools like me,
Who on earth d'you think you are,
A super star,
Well, right you are.
- Instant Karma, John Lennon

7 comments:

BSB said...

Middle-age causes us to stop and reflect...

I don't think there is anything wrong with that...

I don't think that you are grumpy just conscious that the world around one doesn't seem to fit to your standards..which are high, noble and decent... Not always easy to find people who share our ideals of what life is really all about...

Being hurt by these people is part of the game I suppose.. why? hummm haven't figured that one out yet...

We have to stand up for our beliefs which sometimes come with consequences..but I feel it's still important to do so...

We're getting there.. slowly but surely...

Hey.. LIFE IS GOOD! ;-)

I'm leaving for Qu├ębec.. will be back tomorrow probably...

Take care.

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX

BSB said...

I don't think that you are grumpy just conscious that the world around YOU ooppsss ;-)

azgoddess said...

love this one...

as i find that i'm not necessarily more grumpy but opinionated

not afraid to voice what i want or don't want in the world

men call this bitchy...smile -- which is a badge i'm proud to wear...

pissed off patricia said...

I check out my attitude ever so often and most times I think it's okay. But god, I do have my days when I'm not mary sunshine. Actually I think it's kind of healthy to blow off steam one way or another.

Pam said...

Oh yes, the world of the misunderstood, bleeding heart liberal living in a red state. I do know it all too well.

Opinionated and introspective is good. No matter what age you are ;-).

BBC said...

No I won't change godfuckingdamnit.

"I struggle with my ideals and have been wounded and hung on a cross because I won’t conform."

You're not the first one, but only one has become well known because of it.

Still, it's the same spirit that is raging and getting killed everyday.

In new and interesting ways now of course.

BSB said...

I've been away for one day and all hell seems to have broken loose..

What's going on with Angry Ballerina's blog???

I can't seem to access it anymore.. it says that I'm not part of the invites? HUH?

Hope you had a good day..

xoxoxoxoxo